end of first.

what, no blog post for over a month? hello, blog! i'm still alive. :)

so what's new with me? nah. it's SSDD. just haven't had time to blog. i was planning a perfect year ender post pa naman, and then i totally forgot about it. boo memory gap. i'll find some time for that. :)

so it's 2010. i'm wishing for good vibes. 2009 wasn't such a bad year. not as bad as 2008 was for me. but i'm thinking it could've been better. but that's all in the past and i'm keeping my fingers crossed that 2010 will be great! hello positivity! :)

just thought i'd drop a short, nonsense post, just so i could say i blog at least once a month. haha. there you go!

lara spencer apparently knows how to wear pants.

i know right?!?!

i am not a regular viewer of the insider, but i get to watch it at least once a week. the segment i hate the most is lara spencer's look for less. given, i am a girl, i should love clothes and shoes, and i do, but this segment just makes me cringe. she always wears the same thing! tight fitting above the knee dress. lo and behold, when i tuned it to the insider now, lara spencer was wearing a long sleeved polo, a vest.. and get this PANTS! i know, it's so shallow, but i just can't get over this pet peeve of mine. i can't find a picture on google but here's a link to her "wardrobe cam." now i'm figuring, am i supposed to like her now, since she's changing her wardrobe? hmmm..

time for a change..

i'm trying to change my blog. gahd, i think i got a headache just changing my blog's template. so much for trying to be a techie. haha!

love and banking.

i was never the aggressive investor.


for a while there, i thought i was. well, ok, maybe not exactly aggressive.. more of a moderate investor.


really, i am a conservative investor.


i was a banker for almost five years, and you would think that i should know a lot about investing. if you’d ask me where you can put your money, i’d assess the right type of product to offer you based on where you get your money, how often you get it, your spending habits, if you have extra funds and if you have a good understanding of basic banking. if you were just starting out, i’d suggest opening an ATM savings account. if you have your own business, i’d suggest opening a checking account. or if you were really pushy and want to put your money where it would yield higher interests, under my breath, i’d suggest you look for another bank i’d point you to my officer who would then offer you either T-bills or FMIC.

i didn’t stay that long in the banking industry, but i’d stayed long enough to figure out how it works. however, personally, i haven’t really made any investments of my own.

at first, i was a moderate investor. kept some money in a savings account and kept the rest in a time deposit account. this was ok. very manageable. but at some point, i wanted my money to work harder for me.

then i tried my hand at being an aggressive investor. put my funds out there, and wake up a rich woman. ;p so, i went out there, thought i was making a very wise investment in the UITF (Unit Investment Trust Fund). after a few months, UITF wasn’t so profitable as it first started out, and now instead of reaping the fruitful rewards, my investment is still there. losing, instead of gaining, as i type. it’s all really paper loss until i pull it out, where my actual loss will be realized. for now, i’m forgetting about it, even though at the back of my mind i’m regretting why i didn’t pull out that investment when it was still earning. it turned out to be more like a loan rather than an investment. (crap.)

so after that paper loss, i’m now considering myself to be a conservative investor. as much as i want to invest in something, i’m thinking i’d rather keep it to myself instead. watch from the sidelines, see how the economy is doing. i really want to get out there and invest, but i’m crazy scared that that UITF thing will happen to me all over again.

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love and banking? they feel pretty much the same to me. both grow over time. those P5 coins you keep will amount to a hundred bucks before you know it. just like those nonsense conversations you have that become a constant part of your day sooner than you think. being on a ‘we’re just friends’ mode for the longest time is just the same as keeping your money in a low interest bearing savings account. or choosing to break up before things get messy is like pulling out your investment right before its value drops. or giving so much to another person and leaving none for yourself is like issuing checks that have no funds: you are even obliged to pay overdraft charges. there are risks that have to be taken if you want to get a hold of the rewards. and by rewards i mean, regardless of whether you end up in a successful relationship or not, simply following your heart. investments aren’t always guaranteed, some are profitable, some aren’t and at times, you get to consider yourself lucky if you breakeven. you just have to choose carefully and hopefully, you picked the risk worth taking. ¤ö¤

at random..

like i said, the punch line was just around the corner. i just didn't get it. ;p

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sometimes i think when i want something so much, i'm pretty much doomed to screw things up. when the opportunity presents itself, i panic, and i either mess it up or just let it pass me by. the crappy part about it is that opportunities rarely present themselves to me, and when this particular 'opportunity' was in front of me, i didn't even get to savor the 'moment' but went straight to overdrive 'panic mode: ON' instead. gahd, i can't even get myself to stop. and. appreciate. the. small. things.

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it's been almost two months since i've resigned from mbtc and late one night i was thinking what i miss about that place. it took me almost two minutes to come up with something. haha! i'd rather not go back there, but these are the things i miss:

* wearing a skirt (uniform) with 3 inch heels
* seeing anyone of my top 10 (nah, they're not really 10, i just like to call them that) **high school girl swooning**
* hearing stupid things
* rolling my eyes in utter disbelief and/or amusement after hearing or seeing something insanely ridiculous
* this is pretty hard, ha..
* conversing with my most valued clients
* having my after lunch coffee and my 4pm tea

nothing work related to miss, haha! i still go there at least once a week to do personal transactions, and everytime i step inside, i'm thinking thank God i don't work here anymore. ;p

don't you know? it's already ferb-ruary!

it seems like i may have been on hibernate mode, but really, after more than a month of being unemployed, there's nothing much i can really write about. hahaha! first two weeks of january have been very chaotic since we moved. i'm still not yet done, i'm sorting through almost twenty six years worth of trash/stuff. i have been living the dream for quite some time, sleeping late, waking up late, watching tv and surfing the net. this is just like me, about five years ago, fresh out of college and not knowing what to do with my life. what makes this time different is that i feel that i really needed this break, just to keep me sane. february is now here, and i guess it's about time i get out there, back to the real world. over the past few years, there were some things that i wanted that i prayed really hard for or asked for a sign, but sometimes it felt like God was trying to be funny with me with His answers that for a while i stopped asking (but i never stopped praying). in a really weird way, this time around, i got exactly what i wished for, and as good as that is, i'm still scared as hell that the punch line is just around the corner. oh well, it's a brand new year, so i think i'd better stop being pessimistic and start being optimistic. so i'm taking up phineas and ferb on this one, today is gonna be a great day!

happy new year!!

naman!

2008 was a bittersweet year for me. i've had several heartbreaks, including dlsu's season 71 loss, seriously, and my job. but there's no better way to end the year than to walk away from the things i cannot change, and so i did. this new year, i'll start with a clean slate. i even got a new haircut, a different style for the first time in probably eight years. for free, thank you very much! i'd say that's a good start. ;p

on His special day..

kuya jess, happy birthday!!!

pa-cheeseburger ka naman.. ;p

it's over before you know it..

december's half way over. i haven't blogged much these past few weeks, i've been avoiding it really, cause then i'd have to edit out what i'd have to say. i rendered my resignation last november. i only have two weeks left at work, and i still have mixed emotions about it. artista lang.

i had my exit interview at our head office last friday. i had waited for this interview especially during the times when i was at my absolute lowest at work, when i was so frustrated. i've always thought i'd give them a piece of my mind, a large chunk at that. but, the previous evening, i was able to watch survivor philippines' final two face the jury. and i can describe the jury with just one word: bitter. or make that two: very bitter. it got me thinking about what i'd say during my interview. i don't want to sound like i'm bitter, i am already leaving anyway. i'm going to answer all questions honestly. i'm not going to rant on and on about how at some point i was bordering depression (that's what this blog is partially for) going to work. and so i got there, with my exit interview form in hand. i had waited longer than i was interviewed. the interview was really just for formality's sake and it played out really well.

so here it goes, i resigned. i've two weeks left (plus a day if they consider december 29 a working holiday..). i'll be cleaning out my workstation and be saying goodbye to my clients. though i have been contemplating the thought of resigning for a really long time, it still hasn't sunk in now that it has become a reality. i remember saying that this is my biggest regret. it just so happens that my resignation feels like the best decision i've ever made. i'll be jobless in a couple of weeks, it'll be frightening as hell, but i'd rather jump into the unknown than continue drowning in knee deep water i know i can get out of simply by standing up.

chris brown-rihanna live at taguig 11.16.08

just got back from watching chris brown and rihanna live at taguig and i've got two words: never again.

yeah, they were great performers but the venue being an open field was pure crap. crap crap crap. i've learned my lesson. for open field events, it's front row or nothing. i'd prefer watching from araneta colesium's GA. haha. ;p interval between the two acts took over an hour. an entire, freaking hour. crap.

and. big AND. simon atkins was there. seen on the wide screen several times. so near yet so far. it was like fate, tempting. ;p (yeah, i wish!)

on a flooded saturday night..

is this gonna stop me from going out? i don't think so. haha! what flood? to fish & co i go err.. went.. haha! nice seeing you, beters! ;p

1:05 a.m.

my computer clock says it's now 1:05 a.m.

and i'm still online.

and i have work tomorrow later.

can you really sleep with a broken heart?

1:07 a.m.

my version of 'forks' under renovation.. but still 'forks' to me.

**in twilight, bella refers to forks as her 'own personal hell on earth'.. so, do the math.


we're on the third week of our branch renovation. i couldn't say i love it or i hate it.. it's just everything is different..

from this:

..my organized mess..

to this:

..pre-demolition..

and at present, ta-dah! :

..apparently my new turf..

i have been relocated, isolated from the rest of the world, harhar. i'm still adjusting to it, nothing i couldn't get used to, in say, less than four months. HAHA!

superhuman? nah, just suicidal.

everyday, i wake up and deal with the impossible. each.and.every.freakin.workin.day. then i go home, and sleep wishing i'll never have to do the impossible all over again. ¤ö¤

better late than never..

i've been having a hard time accessing the net this past week because of crappy pldt dsl connection.. grr.. i'd forgotten to blog about my lifehouse experience and about scoring lower box seats to the la salle vs ue game, which sadly, we lost.. hopefully, i'll be able to post some time later this week..

he's just not that into you

if you can find him, then he can find you. if he wants to find you, he will.

i bought this book (he's just not that into you by greg behrendt and liz tuccillo) a couple of years ago, just for kicks. and man, the book made sense. haha! it was a good read, i even gave a copy to a friend. i'd forgotten all about the book until it popped into my mind one night while i was 'contemplating' (my 'favorite' past time.. harhar) things. it really is a good read, especially if you're going through an 'it's complicated' phase of your love life. you just might find out, you're not that into him either. ;p

choose to be a blessing..

sometimes, all it takes is one person to completely ruin your day.. likewise, it can also take just one person to make it..

just one.


thanks. ;p

IJR - interbranch job rotation..

i survived my first week of being cross posted, it wasn't as bad as when i first got cross posted about three years ago. i cried back then, and thought that my career would be over. haha. times have changed. i was relieved to be assigned to another branch. i was at the brink of feeling another (too many actually..) job burn out, and thank God i snapped out of it. i still miss my branch, but i do NOT miss the work at all. haha! seriously, just the thought of not having to answer the phone all the time is one of the simplest forms of bliss for me. :) three more weeks to reality..

5.23.08

sometimes it all seems a bit too unreal.. and often times, it actually is.

come home - one republic

[Verse 1]
Hello world
Hope you're listening
Forgive me if I'm young
For speaking out of turn
There's someone I've been missing
I think that they could be
The better half of me
They're in their own place trying to make it right
But I'm tired of justifying
So i say you'll..

[Chorus]
Come home
Come home
Cause I've been waiting for you
For so long
For so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities
But all i see is you and me
The fight for you is all I've ever known
So come home
Oooh

[Verse 2]
I get lost in the beauty
Of everything i see
The world ain't as half as bad
As they paint it to be
If all the sons
If all the daughters
Stopped to take it in
Well hopefully the hate subsides and the love can begin
It might start now..Yeahh
Well maybe I'm just dreaming out loud
Until then

[Chorus]
Come home
Come home
Cause I've been waiting for you
For so long
For so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities
But all i see is you and me
The fight for you is all I've ever known
Ever known
So come home
Oooh

[Interlude]
Everything i can't be
Is everything you should be
And that's why i need you here
Everything i can't be
Is everything you should be
And that's why i need you here
So hear this now

[Chorus]
Come home
Come home
Cause I've been waiting for you
For so long
For so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities
But all i see is you and me
The fight for you is all I've ever known
Ever known
So come home
Come home