yesterday was officially my last day at work. it was supposed to be a holiday, but i had to give in (for the last time..) to another one of the bank's sadistic mandates and reported for work. we operated on offline mode and since transactions posted were validated for jan 2, 2009 (which is again, a holiday.), i didn't log in because i wouldn't be employed by then. :) i answered the phone for the most part of the day, a thing i always did anyway. that is surely one thing i wouldn't miss, having to answer phone calls that weren't mine, and with the phone constantly ringing, it almost felt like the handset was glued to my ear on some days.
anyway.. my official last day was something i have been looking forward to for the whole month of december. it was definitely one of the best days, ever, only because i wouldn't have to go back there as an employee ever again. :) my officemates would joke around and ask me if it was already time to cry, and i'd say, "of course not!" imagine a co-worker telling you this: "alam mo kahit ganyan ka, mami-miss kita." i took it offensively, wtf was that supposed to mean? if it was a joke, it was better left unsaid. i replied, "ganun?" and then walked out. haha! it just wasn't worth it. i know that they will remember me when they cannot (or won't) do the simplest of things (i mean as simple as looking for a client's phone number, the signature cards are there also for that purpose, haller..). imagine, would you miss this? i definitely wouldn't.
i spent the latter half of the month telling clients i resigned. after that statement, i prepared to answer the follow up question, "bakit?" i found it very entertaining how people reacted when i told them i resigned. the automatic assumption was that i had found work elsewhere, probably at another bank. a runner up assumed reason for my resignation was that i was going abroad. when i say that i'm not transferring or going abroad, they'd think i was resigning because i was getting married. ha? i had to laugh everytime i got asked this because i'm thinking, aren't you supposed to work harder if you're getting married? i mean unless you're marrying somebody insanely rich, but then again, a woman can get married and keep her career right? what are we, living in the olden days? to that, again, i'd say no. the best follow up question i got was "bakit, may naka-away ka ba?" haha! showbiz much? i don't think i ever really gave a straight up reason for my resignation. artista lang, i've intentionally avoided having to explain my decision for like the nth time. i do not have a new job elsewhere, for the simple reason that i couldn't even show up for interviews because i couldn't take a leave from work. i am not going abroad, i couldn't even bear to be away from home for more than a week. definitely, i am not getting married (hahaha, very funny!) my resignation letter indicates my reason for resignation was because i had to attend to personal family matters. yes, we have been planning to put up a business for quite some time now but haven't gotten around to actually doing that, and i want to help. could i have helped my family while still keeping my job? why yes, of course! do i still want to be sane? hell yes. so i let go of the thing that has been very very toxic to my system, my work. what about it, you ask? the work, is bearable. work is work. there were days when i'd go home and just have a good cry to let out the stress, but there were also days when it was petiks mode: ON. i just got tired of it. at any workplace, there is a system. if everybody does his or her part, then things would get done. i got tired of waiting for people to do their part and having to pick up their slack. i got tired of being taken for granted (and i don't ask for much). i had enough of not being able to make my own judgement calls, which is really frustrating, because from experience, somebody else would overrule it. what were the guidelines for, display? also, it wasn't really helpful that for questionable transactions or procedures, i had to call up another person from another branch to confirm what i already know or tell me what to do. i should've asked a superior but for the most part, i'd rather not. i learned what i know now not only because somebody taught me the fundamentals but mainly because i taught myself. i had to ask other people how things get done. i had to know almost by heart the things i learned at my mti training, which is probably the only training ever worth attending. i am not being ungrateful to the people who have been my mentors, but for somebody else to take credit for what i have become at work is very unacceptable. the things you learn at work, for work, should've been taught to you by somebody from work. the kiss of death sealed the deal. i had suffered full blown job burn out.
i have been bitter about my work for the longest time and i realize that i'm now only bitter on the surface, if there ever was such a thing. some people may love pain, love the feeling of being broken-hearted, i, on the other hand love the feeling of being bitter. i get a kick out of making bitter comments, haha, but at the end of the day, i don't lose sleep over it. bitter-bitteran lang. ;p
so there. i had a lot to say. very cathartic. probably won't be the last, haha! i am just so loving my new found freedom. ;p to my former career, see you never. ;p
see you never. ;p
it's over before you know it..
december's half way over. i haven't blogged much these past few weeks, i've been avoiding it really, cause then i'd have to edit out what i'd have to say. i rendered my resignation last november. i only have two weeks left at work, and i still have mixed emotions about it. artista lang.
i had my exit interview at our head office last friday. i had waited for this interview especially during the times when i was at my absolute lowest at work, when i was so frustrated. i've always thought i'd give them a piece of my mind, a large chunk at that. but, the previous evening, i was able to watch survivor philippines' final two face the jury. and i can describe the jury with just one word: bitter. or make that two: very bitter. it got me thinking about what i'd say during my interview. i don't want to sound like i'm bitter, i am already leaving anyway. i'm going to answer all questions honestly. i'm not going to rant on and on about how at some point i was bordering depression (that's what this blog is partially for) going to work. and so i got there, with my exit interview form in hand. i had waited longer than i was interviewed. the interview was really just for formality's sake and it played out really well.
so here it goes, i resigned. i've two weeks left (plus a day if they consider december 29 a working holiday..). i'll be cleaning out my workstation and be saying goodbye to my clients. though i have been contemplating the thought of resigning for a really long time, it still hasn't sunk in now that it has become a reality. i remember saying that this is my biggest regret. it just so happens that my resignation feels like the best decision i've ever made. i'll be jobless in a couple of weeks, it'll be frightening as hell, but i'd rather jump into the unknown than continue drowning in knee deep water i know i can get out of simply by standing up.
what a stupid lamb. ;p
i had a hell-ish week and the only thing that made me go on was the thought that i'd get to watch twilight by the end of the week. true enough, i survived just fine. :)
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i've already watched twilight three times. yeah, i'm pretty much addicted. prior to watching it, i've read all four books (thanks to rica :) ), i've seen 'pirated' scenes on youtube, and i've re-read twilight this past week. i've set no expectations for the movie so that i wouldn't get disappointed. the book is better, much much better than the movie. but, getting to see the book come to life isn't half bad either. i'm bordering on turning fangirl-ish and the only thing that's stopping me is that i think i'm too old for this sh*t. so what?! i only get to be twenty-five going on seventeen once. haha!
i have also been watching rob's (robert pattinson, that's right! we're tight likethis) interviews on youtube. for a while there, i couldn't get over the hair. man, i just wanted to brush his hair or something. and then i got over the hair. i can live with that. but i still can't get over him. i <3 you, rob. (call me ;p hahaha!!!)
D day + 1
looks like i'm in for a bumpy ride, but i know that the destination is so worth it. freedom, at last. i could almost taste it. ;p
when a heart breaks, no it don't break even.
I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayin' to a god that I don't believe in
Cos I got time while she got freedom
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even
Her best days will be some of my worst
She finally met a man that's gonna put her 1st
While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even... even... no
What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you and
What am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and your ok
I'm falling to pieces yeah
I'm falling to pieces
They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
Cos she's moved on while I'm still grieving
And when a heart breaks no it don't break even even... no
What am I gonna to do when the best part of me was always you and
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your ok
I'm falling to pieces yeah
I'm falling to pieces yeah
I'm falling to pieces
(One still in love while the other ones leaving
I'm falling to pieces
(Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even)
Oh you got his heart and my heart and none of the pain
You took your suitcase, I took the blame.
Now I'm tryna make sense of what little remains ooh
Cos you left me with no love and no love to my name.
I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayin' to a god that I don't believe in
Cos I got time while she got freedom
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break
No it don't break
No it don't break even no
What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you and
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your ok
(Oh glad your okay now)
I'm falling to pieces yeah
(Oh I'm glad your okay)
I'm falling to pieces yeah
(One still in love while the other ones leaving)
I'm falling to pieces
(Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even)
Oh it don't break even no
Oh it don't break even no
Oh it don't break even no
what would i do without you? come on..
chris brown-rihanna live at taguig 11.16.08
just got back from watching chris brown and rihanna live at taguig and i've got two words: never again.
yeah, they were great performers but the venue being an open field was pure crap. crap crap crap. i've learned my lesson. for open field events, it's front row or nothing. i'd prefer watching from araneta colesium's GA. haha. ;p interval between the two acts took over an hour. an entire, freaking hour. crap.
and. big AND. simon atkins was there. seen on the wide screen several times. so near yet so far. it was like fate, tempting. ;p (yeah, i wish!)
gahd.
i've just been given the kiss of death. yesterday. gahd. holy crap. i still know where my heart's at. at least. i really need to take my mind off it.
i need a margarita. ;p
can i have this dance?
i'll always be a disney kid at heart and HSM is my guilty pleasure. ;p love the song, love the choreography, and i must say i love zac efron. hahaha! all of my frustrations, captured in a movie scene. ftw!
with all my heart, i'm making a wish.
peyton: make a wish and place it in your heart.. anything you want, everything you want..
lucas: do you have it? good. now believe it can come true. you never know where the next miracle is gonna come from, the next smile, the next wish come true.
peyton: but if you believe that it's right around the corner, and you open your heart and mind to possibility of it, to the certainty of it..
brooke: you just might get the thing you're wishing for.
nathan: the world is full of magic. you just have to believe in it. so make your wish. do you have it?
haley: good. now believe in it, with all your heart.
from one tree hill's echoes, silence, patience and grace episode. watching this scene hit me. big time.
on a flooded saturday night..
is this gonna stop me from going out? i don't think so. haha! what flood? to fish & co i go err.. went.. haha! nice seeing you, beters! ;p
technically speaking..
In DLSU's first game of the season, the Archers were slapped with a technical foul even before the game began. The reason? The coaching staff did not wear their IDs.
In DLSU's last game of the season, Rico Maierhofer was slapped with a technical foul. The reason? For giving a dirty finger. Then he got ejected. That was the end for me.
I suddenly remembered my earlier entry about excessive complaining. With season 71 over, I might just give the ball to my referees and tell them, 'you win.'
**buzzer**
It is now my fourth quarter.
i. bleed. green.
UAAP men’s basketball season 71 ended today, 62-51 in favor of the Ateneo Blue Eagles. Yeah, it was another heart breaking game, but thanks to NABRO, it doesn’t hurt so much. I can’t find the right word but i guess frustrating will have to do.
Ateneo deserved to win. It really did. Most of the special awards were given to their team. They had great players. They won all but one of their games this season. So season 71 belongs to Ateneo. Congratulations. See you season 72.
So where does my frustration begin? With all the calls NABRO made. And that no taunting rule. It was really screwed up. Bitterness much? Yeah, I know.
La Salle deserved to fight. Like hell. And they did as much as they were allowed to. FTW.
DLSU Green Archers ended season 71 at second place. I am very much proud of them. I feel sad too, especially for JV who played his heart out. He even had his game face on during the Mythical Five awarding. Thank you, King Archer JV, for playing all heart and keeping the animo alive.
On a personal note, I still can’t get over the fact that season 71 is over. O-V-E-R. It was more than just basketball to me. In my QLC mode: ON phase, thank you Archers for giving me my happy place. I can't wait for season 72.
ANIMO LA SALLE!! >>--->
NABRO..
if NABRO referees wanted to play basketball, they should've formed their own team and not actually joined one.
ANIMO LA SALLE!!
1:05 a.m.
my computer clock says it's now 1:05 a.m.
and i'm still online.
and i have work tomorrow later.
can you really sleep with a broken heart?
1:07 a.m.
game 1: admu def dlsu 69-61
can i be bitter? haha. i can't stop thinking about the finals game one. dammit we lost. gah.
game 2 is on thursday. though i am bleeding green, i am keeping the faith. i want dlsu to win this.. for jv because this is his last year, for rico and his acrobatics on the floor, for simon, period. haha. for simon's whiplash earlier this season. for coach jack surviving taking over two games. i just want them to win it.
truth be told, i don't want this season to end. not yet. keep the faith, animo la salle! play like there's no tomorrow..
game on.. ftw!
it will all begin in less than 24 hours, game 1 of the uaap season 71 finals, dream finals at that, the de la salle university green archers vs the ateneo de manila university blue eagles. i say, game on! animo la salle! for the win!
and the winner is.. araneta!!
sky cable cut off our connection, again. so i was relying on text messages to keep me posted about the dlsu vs feu game. dlsu won so we're in the finals!!
by some sort of miracle, we had our cable connection and i was able to watch the admu vs ue game, or rather parts of it. it was murder. admu won by more or less 20 points.
so sunday, september 21 is an extremely heavenly day for scalpers. i'm sure ticket prices are sky high. like i said.. ateneo, see you in the finals. keep the faith, ANIMO LA SALLE!!
what's your skycable story?
dlsu had it's play-off game against feu today. being the green archer fan that i was, i hurriedly finished all my work, unpatiently waited for 5:30 pm to arrive. while waiting, i'd call home and ask for the scores or updates. plus, aps would text me updates of the game from time to time. i knew that if i left right after work, i'd still get to watch about half of the third quarter. so there i was, rushing home to see if i'd still be able to catch the last quarter. lo and behold, we had no cable reception. ?!?@>$!? wtf?! it has rained hard for the past few days, but today's the lucky day skycable chooses to suspend their service in our area. as of 12:30 this friday morning, we still have no cable. grrr.. i wasn't able to watch the replay. damn you, skycable. i hope we get rebates for service we paid for but didn't get.
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on a brighter note, dlsu won 62-59 against feu. :) final four begins this sunday. man, i can't believe season 71 is about to end. call me crazy, but watching uaap is what has kept me sane this past few months. i'd have at least two games left to watch the archers in action. come october, omg. work will be all i'll ever think about. how will i ever be able to put up with three more months of torture?
***
at the office>>
basket number 1..
t: alam mo, mvp ka.
b: anong mvp?
t: most valuable player.
b: bakit?
t: hilig mo magpasa eh. pasa ka ng pasa ng trabaho.
basket number 2..
t1: simula ngayon, tawag ko na sa yo, PG..
b : PG?
t2: anong PG, patay gutom?
t1: hindi, point guard, turo ka kasi ng turo kung anong gagawin..
;p ahlavet!
take it from coach jack..
**just had to comment: i couldn't believe there were rumors that jv sold that last game. to those who speculated that, how dare you? shame on you. shame on you all. keep the faith. **
my version of 'forks' under renovation.. but still 'forks' to me.
**in twilight, bella refers to forks as her 'own personal hell on earth'.. so, do the math.
we're on the third week of our branch renovation. i couldn't say i love it or i hate it.. it's just everything is different..
from this:
..my organized mess..
to this:
..pre-demolition..
and at present, ta-dah! :
..apparently my new turf..
i have been relocated, isolated from the rest of the world, harhar. i'm still adjusting to it, nothing i couldn't get used to, in say, less than four months. HAHA!
yeah we rock, we rock, we rock.. ;p
you're the voice i hear inside my head,
the reason that i'm singing,
i need to find you, i gotta find you..
you're the missing piece i need,
the song inside of me,
i need to find you,
i gotta find you..
i stumbled upon disney's original movie camp rock and watched half of it. i'm beginning to think my mind must be still stuck in high school, because i liked it. haha. not like, like though. i liked the storyline, although the execution was pretty crappy. i must say, sometimes, i'm too imaginative for my own good. so for now, this is me will be in my head until i get sick of it.. or not. ;p
the day i met my good friend marge.. admu vs dlsu 2nd round elims uaap season 71
after weeks of planning for the much awaited dlsu vs admu 2nd round eliminations game, we finally settled on not watching it LIVE, but opted to watch at friday's glorietta instead. as expected, tickets were hard to find, most sold at unreasonable prices and today was christmas day for the scalpers (damn you all..) at araneta. so there we were, watching the game as if our hearts were breaking for every shot jv didn't make. dlsu lost to admu, 65-57 in a game where dlsu didn't even get a lead, and jv casio's points didn't even hit double digit. franz pumaren coming home from iran didn't even seem to matter, because dlsu still lost. some time third quarter, it seemed like drinking a margarita was the perfect consolation to what was turning out to be a heart breaking game. so we said hello and goodbye to marge..
*sigh* all this frustration coming from what boom says is a no-bearing game. see, there is no such thing as a no bearing dlsu vs admu game. losing hurts like hell, but watching a lost game live is more painful than watching it on tv. nice game ateneo, see you at the finals final four.. ANIMO LA SALLE!!!
thank you. 9.3.08
watched just my luck a couple of nights ago and this dialogue hit me:
Ashley: What can i say, I am a pathetic disaster and i give up!
Jake: You give up?
A: I give up. I dont care any more. You know what? It feels great!
J: You know what? I gave up years ago. Its my secret to happiness.
well i thought, perfect. this is what i should do. but then again, how can you really give up? i've been pondering how to do this and today i finally get it. i give up. :)
today was a typical bad day. i've had worse. but because of you, i finally realized what i've been putting up with. today, i realized, i no longer have tears to cry. today, i realized what kind of a person i don't want to be. for that, thank you. i am not being sarcastic, i am genuinely grateful. last night, i didn't sleep well deciding what choice to make. tonight is different. i've made my choice. my only obstacle is to stick to that choice. i will probably never be able to thank you for this day because i'm sure it will be taken the wrong way, so i'll do it here:
thank you. you were the sign i was waiting for.
about to hit the bench..
if life was a basketball game and God was the referee, maybe it's about time i was given a technical foul for excessive complaining. ;p ¤ö¤
you're exactly my brand of heroin.
so i'm late, as always. haha. well, better late than never. thanks to rica, i've rediscovered my passion for reading. i bought all four books of stephenie meyer's twilight saga: twilight, new moon, eclipse and breaking dawn. i fell in love with twilight even before i finished reading it. so what if i got home really tired from work? so what if i had to wake up early to go to work the next day? screw work. i slept late and woke up early everyday this week. i'm now reading eclipse, and i am so loving the long weekend. :) i love edward to death (haha!)! every girl has to have an edward.. ;p
lifehouse 7.26.08
watched the lifehouse philippine tour at the areneta coliseum with aps, from way up upper b. haha! i loved it. i gotta give it to jason wade, for giving his all, singing every song as if he meant every word. he had so much passion in him. how i wish i had even half the passion he has, for anything. haha.
i loved all the songs, but this one has gotta be one of my favorites.. so take me away, jason wade. haha!
Take Me Away
this time all I want is you
there is no one else
who can take your place
this time you burned me with your eyes
you see past all the lies
you take it all away
I've seen it all and it's never enough
it keeps leaving me needing you
take me away
take me away
I've got nothing left to say
just take me away
I try to make my way to you
but still I feel so lost
I don't know what else I can do
I've seen it all and it's never enough
it keeps leaving me needing you
take me away
take me away
I've got nothing left to say
just take me away
don't give up on me yet
don't forget who I am
I know I'm not there yet
but don't let me stay here alone
this time all I want is you
there is no one else
who can take your place
I've seen it all and it's never enough
it keeps leaving me needing you
take me away
take me away
I've got nothing left to say
just take me away
take me away
take me away
I've got nothing left to say
just take me away
**pretty deep, when i listen to this song, full blast on earphones, it feels like a prayer.**
superhuman? nah, just suicidal.
better late than never..
i've been having a hard time accessing the net this past week because of crappy pldt dsl connection.. grr.. i'd forgotten to blog about my lifehouse experience and about scoring lower box seats to the la salle vs ue game, which sadly, we lost.. hopefully, i'll be able to post some time later this week..
dream come true..
i finally bought my dream phone. sony ericsson g900. it took me all day last saturday to decide whether to buy it or not. and before watching the lifehouse concert, i've made up my mind. come sunday, i'm gonna get me a new phone. sunday morning, i thought i'd sleep in really late, but surprisingly i woke up very early. the funny thing is, i had a dream about that phone! so after eating lunch, i bought the phone. I LOVE IT! switching phone brands is actually a big transition for me, having been a loyal nokia user ever since i got my own phone when i was in fourth year highschool. my first phone was a nokia 3210, then a nokia 8250, then a nokia 8310, then a nokia 7250, then 7200 and finally, my most loved nokia 6270. i've had 6 nokia phones in a span of (give or take) 8 years. i've also changed my number at least four times (new number=new phone.. haha!) i was very content with my 6270, it took decent pictures, played music and i loved that it was a slide phone. but the thing that i loved about it the most was the same thing that let me down. the part of the phone which was either called a slide or a glide was worn out. last year, it had been replaced already and thank God it was still within the warranty. it has been months and that specific spare part is still not available at either nokia greenbelt or glorietta. grrrr... so after contemplating whether to get a new phone or not, to get a nokia phone or not, i searched the net and instantly fell in love with SE G900. i'm still in the getting-to-know-you stage, but i have a really strong feeling i'll be staying with this phone for a very long time.
he's just not that into you
if you can find him, then he can find you. if he wants to find you, he will.
i bought this book (he's just not that into you by greg behrendt and liz tuccillo) a couple of years ago, just for kicks. and man, the book made sense. haha! it was a good read, i even gave a copy to a friend. i'd forgotten all about the book until it popped into my mind one night while i was 'contemplating' (my 'favorite' past time.. harhar) things. it really is a good read, especially if you're going through an 'it's complicated' phase of your love life. you just might find out, you're not that into him either. ;p
(lack of) common sense..
one tree hill - 4 years, 6 months, 2 days..
Peyton: Hi, it's Peyton. Yeah, I'm sorry. I know it's late there, I just... what happened to us? You know? I don't know who I am anymore. Or how I got here. I miss who I used to be. I wanna have a home again, ya know? And real friends. You know, the kind of friendships we used to believe in. I miss that. And I miss you. I guess I just miss all of it. Does any of that make any sense?
(We see Peyton's mysterious phone call is... to Brooke)
Brooke: Yeah, it makes all the sense in the world, Peyton. Four years ago, it all seemed so clear, didn't it? Conquer the world, save the world, live happily ever after.
Peyton: Are you happy, Brooke?
Brooke: Sometimes. Not always. Are you?
Peyton: No.
Brooke: Okay, then let me ask you something. What is gonna make you happy, Peyton? Is it how you look? Or the car you drive or the people you know? Is it money or celebrity or power or accomplishments? Because I have all those things and I don't think it's enough.
Peyton: Well then, what is?
Brooke: Love, I think. And that love can be for a boy or a girl or a place or a way of life or even for a family. But where you find it is up to you. So where are you gonna find that love, Peyton?
Peyton: I think I need to go home.
Brooke: Yeah. I was hoping you'd say that.
from www.tv.com
..amats..
we lived to love..
..but the planets all aligned, when you looked into my eyes.. & just like that, the chemicals react.
*chemicals react - aly and aj*
life - dreams = job
happy (or unhappy?) 4th to me. i have been working for four years, and this is not where i imagined myself to be. i still remember my first day at work, training actually, and believe it or not, i was actually late. for about twenty minutes. who gets late on their first day at work?! i should have taken that as a sign. my training was great, i met new people, and i learned a lot of things. little did i know that two weeks later, my life as i knew it would change. and that four years later, i'd still be here. putting up with all this ----. i haven't made too many life altering decisions, but by far, this is the biggest regret i've ever had in my whole life. but i believe it's not yet too late to change things. 2008 ain't over yet, i still have five months left. good luck to me.
if by this time next year, i'm still stuck here (and by here, i mean my job-burnout-state-of-mind..), i swear.. magpapaburger ako..
one wish? happiness.
ned: you're the only one for me..
chuck: i know you feel that now, but there are things you want, there's things we both want..
ned: so? everyone wants stuff. we wake up everyday with a list of wishes a mile long & maybe we spend our lives trying to make those wishes come true, but just because we want them doesn't mean we need them to be happy.
chuck: what do you need to be happy?
ned: you.
yeah, a bit cheesy but you get the picture.. ok, wait for it.. aaawww... *sigh*
choose to be a blessing..
just one.
thanks. ;p
age is just a number.. nyahaha..
still can't get over..
uaap season 71 officially started for me yesterday, july 6, 2008 and too bad dlsu lost to admu, 73-79. it is that time of the year again when almost nothing means more to me than the dlsu green archers. oo na, OA, but it really is a different feeling. yeah, i'd want them to win every game they played, but if they didn't i wouldn't hate them for it. i'd still love them, maybe even more pa nga. true love talaga. i had a shitty week at work, but seeing them play made me feel that it was all worth it. even if they lost, i wasn't really disappointed, more of broken hearted. i woke up today thinking: 1. we lost and 2. i heart simon. bwahaha. there will be other games, and they will play harder, and they might break my heart again.. game on. i'll still be here, all for the love of la salle. (karir?) ANIMO LA SALLE!
feeling-broken-hearted-much
green shirt
..ironing out..
hay..
i'm so miserable. it's been four days since i returned to the 'real world' and i'm dreading almost every minute of it. but then, as they say, you gotta look for that silver lining, or be thankful for what you have, but damn. that's all i can say for now. haha. plus i'll be singing that song: i'm a survivor, i'm gonna make it, i will survive, keep on surviving! peace out!
did i mention, you're about to miss a good thing? ;p
Baby, baby, baby
From the day I saw you
I really really want to catch your eye
There's something special 'bout you
I must really like you
Cause not a lotta guys are worth my time
Ooo baby, baby, baby
It's gettin kind of crazy
Cause you are takin over my mind
And it feels like oooooo
But you don't know my name
And I swear it feels like ooooo ooooo ooooo ooooo
You don't know my name
(round and round and round we go, will you ever know)
Oh baby baby baby
I see us on our first date
You're doin everything that makes me smile
And when we had our first kiss
It happened on a Thursday
Ooooo it set my soul on fire
Ooo baby baby baby
I can't wait for the first time
My imagination's runnin wild
It feels like ooooo
You don't know my name
And I swear it baby, it feels like oooo ooooo ooooo ooooo
You don't know my name
(round and round and round we go, will you ever know)
"I'm sayin, he don't even know what he's doin' to me
Got me feelin' all crazy inside
I'm feelin like"
Owww! Ooooo Oooooo
Doin more than I've ever done for anyone's attention
Take notice of what's in front of you
Cause did I mention you're 'bout to miss a good thing
And you'll never know how good it feels to have all of my affection
And you'll never get a chance to experience my lovin'
Cause my lovin' feels like ooooooo
You don't know my name
(round and round and round we go, will you ever know
And I swear it feels like oooo ooooo ooooo ooooo
You don't know my name
(round and round and round we go, will you ever know)
Ohhh
Will you ever know it, no no no no no
Will you ever know it?
"I'm gonna have to just go ahead and call this boy.
Hello? Can I speak to -- to Michael?
Oh hey, how you doin?
Uh, I feel kinda silly doin' this,
But um, this is the waitress from the coffee house on 39th and Lennox
You know, the one with the braids?
Yeah, well I see you on Wednesdays all the time
You come in every Wednesday on your lunch break, I think
And you always order the special, with the hot chocolate
And my manager be tripping and stuff
Talking bout we gotta use water
But I always use some milk and cream for you
Cause I think you're kinda sweet.
Anyway you always got on some fly blue suit
'n your cufflinks are shining all bright
So, whatchu do? Oh, word? Yeah, that's interesting
Look man, I mean I don't wanna waste your time but
I know girls don't usually do this,
But I was wondering if maybe we could get together
Outside the restaurant one day
Cause I do look a lot different outside my work clothes
I mean we could just go across the street to the park right here
Wait, hold up, my cell phone's breakin up, hold up
Can you hear me now? Yeah
So, what day did you say?
Oh yeah, Thursday's perfect, man:."
And it feels like oooo
You don't know my name
(round and round and round we go, will you ever know)
Baby Baby I swear it's like oooooo
You don't know my name, no no no
(round and round and round we go, will you ever know)
And it feels like oooo
You don't know my name
(round and round and round we go, will you ever know)
And I swear on my mother and father it feels like
Oooo ooo oooo ooo ooo ooo
Oooo ooo oooo ooo ooo ooo
Oooo ooo oooo ooo ooo ooo
You don't know my name
(round and round and round we go, will you ever know?)
>> http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/aliciakeys/youdontknowmyname.html
moment of weakness..
phineas: hey ferb, snap out of it. what happened back there?
ferb: i.. was weak
;p
love and learn.
whether it lasts forever or ends tomorrow, it will have taught you something if you've paid attention. it's best if you value love for something that enriches your life rather than something you need to have.. =sophia bush=
going..
guy: so, kumusta naman kayo? (probably referring to the girl and her boyfriend.)
girl: eto... (pause.)
guy: going strong?
girl: yeah, going.. (pause pa rin..)
guy: aahh..
girl: going.. no where.
>> hehe.. parang usapang lasing. :)
IJR - interbranch job rotation..
me want one..
sony ericsson g900.. hope it's as good as it looks. damn.
taking it easy
5.23.08
come home - one republic
[Verse 1]
Hello world
Hope you're listening
Forgive me if I'm young
For speaking out of turn
There's someone I've been missing
I think that they could be
The better half of me
They're in their own place trying to make it right
But I'm tired of justifying
So i say you'll..
[Chorus]
Come home
Come home
Cause I've been waiting for you
For so long
For so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities
But all i see is you and me
The fight for you is all I've ever known
So come home
Oooh
[Verse 2]
I get lost in the beauty
Of everything i see
The world ain't as half as bad
As they paint it to be
If all the sons
If all the daughters
Stopped to take it in
Well hopefully the hate subsides and the love can begin
It might start now..Yeahh
Well maybe I'm just dreaming out loud
Until then
[Chorus]
Come home
Come home
Cause I've been waiting for you
For so long
For so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities
But all i see is you and me
The fight for you is all I've ever known
Ever known
So come home
Oooh
[Interlude]
Everything i can't be
Is everything you should be
And that's why i need you here
Everything i can't be
Is everything you should be
And that's why i need you here
So hear this now
[Chorus]
Come home
Come home
Cause I've been waiting for you
For so long
For so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities
But all i see is you and me
The fight for you is all I've ever known
Ever known
So come home
Come home
--
i wish i had a different job because i REALLY have a lot to say about my current one.. oh well..
my summer song..
Hey baby girl, I’ve been watching you all day (all day x3)
Man that thing you got behind you is amazing (amazing x3)
You make me want to take you out and let it rain (let it rain x3)
I know you got a man but this is what you should say
Why don’t you tell him that I’m leavin’ never lookin back again
You found somebody who does it better than he can
no more making you cry, no more them gray skies
girl we flying on the G5 G5
And I’m leavin’ never lookin back again…
So call your shawty you tell him you found a new man
The one who’s so so fly
The one that keep you high
have you singing all night night night
Oh oh oh (repeat) man she going to be sayin’
Oh oh oh oh (repeat)
Now if I talk it girl, you know that I will walk it out (walk it out x3)
Man I’ll put my money (money) where my mouth is (mouth is x3)
Cause you the baddest little thing that I’ve ever seen (ever seen x3)
So ima ask you one time if you got a man
Why don’t you tell him that I’m leavin’ never lookin back again
You found somebody who does it better than he can
no more making you cry, no more them gray skies
girl we flying on a G5 G5
And I’m leavin’ never lookin back again…
So call your shawty you tell him you found a new man
The one who’s so so fly
The one that keep you high
have you singing all night night night
Oh oh oh (repeat) man she going to be sayin’
Oh oh oh oh (repeat)
Don’t stress, don’t stress, don’t stress
Just tell him to the left left left
Don’t stress, don’t stress, don’t stress
Cause we gone & we gone & we gone
No stress, no stress, no stress
Girl you deserve nothing but the best
No stress, no stress, no stress
Girl you need to tell him…
That I’m leavin’ never lookin back again
You found somebody who does it better than he can
no more making you cry, no more them gray skies
girl we flying on a G5 G5
And I’m leavin’ never lookin back again…
So call your shawty you tell him you found a new man
The one who’s so so fly
The one that keep you high
have you singing all night night night
Oh oh oh (repeat) man she going to be sayin’
Oh oh oh oh (repeat)
wish as i hit quarter life..
beauty in walking away -- marie digby
A pale flickering glow
How many times do I have to dream that I could be there
The time is here and she won't be waiting for me to find the easy way out
I've lost count of the days that were wasted
There's an answer in the sound of a train
There is wisdom past the bridge on the bay
There's a lifetime through the fog, in the rain
there's a beauty in walking away
I float on the streets that are empty
take the path that the wind only knows
Tonight is the last time that I'll ever be here
There's an answer in the sound of a train
there is wisdom past the bridge on the bay
There's a lifetime through the fog, in the rain
there's a beauty in walking away
It's never quite simple, it's never that safe
it never seems perfect until it's too late
It's never the right time to find a new way
There's an answer in the sound of a train
there is wisdom past the bridge on the bay
There's a lifetime through the fog, in the rain
there's a beauty in walking away
**marie digby's album is set for release on april 8, 2008.. cool..
--offline--
very funny.. har har!!
somewhere in manila, obviously i'm fish out of water, hehe, i saw this billboard.. go figure!
the fight is over - urbandub
cause our mouths have just run dry
As our feelings get colder
There is nothing to hold us now
Gave all this time
Just to be let down
Can you explain to me
What has become of us
With words released
We can never take them back
(For all that we're worth now)
Not even pleading can save us
I know you'll meet someone better
But would you still think of me
If he can't hold you like I did
Would you run back to me
Yes I know this pain shall pass
Gave all this time
Still we couldn't last
How could we end this
Way our promises thrown away
All the years we've built
Broken up see it crashing down
I have to say though alone
In this crazy sea of faces
It's still your face I wanna know
next to you - jordin sparks
You're in my head like a song on the radio
All I know is that I got to get next to you
Yeah I got to get next to you
Sitting here turning minutes into hours
To find the nerve just to call you on the telephone
You don't know that I got to get next to you
Maybe we're friends
Maybe we're more
Maybe it's just my imagination
But I see you stare just a little too long
And it makes me start to wonder
So baby call me crazy
But I think you feel it too
Maybe I, Maybe I
Just got to get next to you
I asked around and I heard that you were talking
Told my girl that you thought I was out of your league
What a fool, I got to get next to you, whoa
Yeah it's five in the morning and I can't go to sleep
'Cause I wish, yeah I wish that you knew what you mean to me
Baby let's get together and end this mystery, oh
Maybe we're friends
Maybe we're more
Maybe it's just my imagination
But I see you stare just a little too long
And it makes me start to wonder
So baby call me crazy
But I think you feel it too
Maybe I, Maybe I
Just got to get next to you
Whatcha got to say? Whatcha got to do?
How ya get the one you want to want to get next to you?
Whatcha got to say? Whatcha got to do?
How ya get the one you want to want to get next to you?
Whatcha got to say? Whatcha got to do?
How ya get the one you want to want to get next to you?
Whatcha got to say? Whatcha got to do?
How ya get the one you want to want to get next to you?
Yeah, yeah, to want to get next to you
Maybe we're friends
Maybe we're more
Maybe it's just my imagination
But I see you stare just a little too long
And it makes me start to wonder
So baby call me crazy
But I think you feel it too
Baby call me crazy
But I know you feel it too
Maybe I, Maybe I
Just got to get next to you
Yeah, yeah, yeah
I got to get next to you
** kilig song.. hehe.. i love it!!**
>> whatcha gonna say? whatcha gonna do? how ya get the one you want to want to get next to you?
..i'm gonna love you more than anyone..
i'll be around
Don't let this end before I see you again
What can I say to convince you to change your mind of me?
I'm gonna love you more than anyone
I'm gonna hold you closer than before
and when I kiss your soul, your body will be free
I'll be free for you anytime
I'm gonna love you more than anyone
Look in my eyes
What do you see?
Not just the color, look inside of me
Tell me all you need
And I will try
I will try
I'm gonna love you more than anyone
I'm gonna hold you closer than before
and when I kiss your soul, your body will be free
I'll be free for you anytime
I'm gonna love you more than anyone
Free for you whatever you need
We'll be free together, baby
Free together, baby
I'm gonna love you more than anyone
I'm gonna hold you closer than before
And when I kiss your soul your body be free
I'll be free
For you anytime
I'm gonna love you more than anyone
I'm gonna love you more than anyone
** i miss one tree hill.. haha.. this song would be perfect for a wedding.. *sigh* har har!!
starbuck's magallanes 2-2-08.. two of my must haves -- friends and coffee.. super stress reliever. seriously. belated happy birthday ysh!
27 dresses..
from the movie:
kevin: what about you? you don't have any needs?
jane: (with a straight face) no. i'm Jesus.
ha!
in five years..
..you're the best part of my day..
with you -- chris brown
i need you boo
i gotta see you boo
& there's hearts all over the world tonight
said there's hearts all over the world tonight
i need you boo
i gotta see you boo
& there's hearts all over the world tonight
said there's hearts all over the world tonight
hey lil mama, ooh you're a stunner
hot little figure, yes you a winner, &
i'm so glad to be yours
you're a class of your own &
ooh little cutie, when you talk to me
i swear the whole world stops
you're my sweetheart and
i'm so glad that you're mine
you are one of a kind, and
you mean to me what i mean to you
& together baby there is nothing we won't do
cause if i got you
i don't need money
i don't need cars
girl you're my heart
& oh, i'm into you
& girl no one else would do
with every kiss and every hug
you make me fall in love
& now i know i can't be the only one
i bet there's hearts all over the world tonight
with the love of their life who feel
what i feel when i'm with you, with you, with you, with you, with you.. girl
with you, with you, with you, with you, with you.. oh girl
i don't want nobody else
without you there's no one left, and
you're like jordans on saturday
i gotta have you and i cannot wait now
hey lil shorty, say you care for me
you know i care for you
you know that i will be true
you know that i won't lie
you know that i will try
be your everything
cause if i got you
i don't need money
i don't need cars
girl you're my heart
oh, i'm into you and
girl no one else would do
with every kiss and every hug
you make me fall in love
& now I know i can't be the only one
i bet there's hearts all over the world tonight
with the love of their life who feel
what i feel when i'm with you, with you, with you, with you, with you.. ohhh
with you, with you, with you, with you, with you.. yeah
& i will never try
to deny that you are my whole life
cause if you ever let me go
i would die so i won't run
i don't need another woman
i just need you or nothing
cause if i got that
then i'll be straight
baby you're the best part of my day
i need you boo
i gotta see you boo
& there's hearts all over the world tonight
daid there's hearts all over the world tonight
they need their boo
they gotta see their boo
daid there's hearts all over the world tonight
hearts all over the world tonight
and oh, i'm into you and
girl no one else would do
with every kiss and every hug
you make me fall in love
and now i know i can't be the only one
i bet there's hearts all over the world tonight
with the love of their life who feel
what i feel when i'm with you, with you, with you, with you, with you... ohhh(girl)
with you, with you, with you, with you, with you... ohhh
with you, with you, with you, with you, with you...
baby yeah
